2000hrs 10th feb - was at st luke. sigh,as i look at the frail lady lying on the bed, tears just kept rolling down. so skinny. almost close to a skeleton. can u imagine my feeling? how i felt at the point? ................. my grandma was diagnosed with cancer... 3rd stage. sometimes i wonder why, why do we need to go through life. so many times i have been through these kind of stages in live. im just 26. not 66... but i just felt i have been to hell....... and still going... going deeper and deeper.. mentally tortured. my emotions being fragile. was there , not knowing what to say to her. just sat there silently... how i wish all the sufferings would be gone.. 1 day.. i might just collapse and fall.