2009 chinese new year. Was actually together with this ger. well... knew 1 another since 19? like 7yrs ago when i started riding. we always call 1 another bao. and we have not been in touch with 1 another for quite some long. then.. 1 day i receive an msn from her....... we were chating and asking if any of us had moved on and found ourselves a steady r/s. as expected. none did move on.... so then i asked if she wanted to try out on a r/s with me. since both of us know this is purely a r/s which is not even known to the public. she know she is not going to tell any of her family and frens. cause well , who wants to let people know about a r/s which is not stable? then so even when we try it out. things doesnt turn out right? whyyyyyy? either we were too busy for 1 another. well at least for my side it is true. i started on a new business which needs to occupy my evening time. so then we managed to meet up on the 2nd or 3rd day of cny. well she was asking me if she need to bring oranges when visiting my godmum house. then i post a Q back and replied - do u bring oranges when u visit people? when i reach around her vicinity, haa her face was pretty black. well i am who i am? well at least for the instant. then we continue our visits, after that gambled poker. hmm because she is around, i wanted to gamble alone and not share with my mum. cause 3 person share a card i think the relatives would grumble. then me and my mum started gambling on our own. by end of the night. i didnt really win or lose but sad to say my mum lost $240. ohmy! my mum is earning probably 800$ a mth. sigh.. at 1st didnt want to give her any ang bao this year due to many factors. and i also bought her bai du mei yuan bao liao. cause me 4-500$... in the end during her bday on 7th Feb i still bao her a $500 ang bao with many ten dollar note which i want to tell her that money is not earned easily. ok... side track so much. back to this girl who is my BAO , then after sending my mum home i then send BAO back home. hmm... as i reached her house , then we started to talk about future. Then she post me Qs - do u know what is the thing i want? how well do u know me? I was pretty speechless. couldnt answer up to her expectations. but what i know is i want to strive for a career and provide a gd living for the pple around me.. my family and the family which i will be settling up in the future.... and so while driving back home. i thought for a while. and i SMSed her 2 long SMS of which she didnt reply any. In short, i tell her is either you can leave me as its only fair for her to find someone who can give her a proper and decent life or to be me an opportunity to prove myself worthy. No replies came... .... till then.